Friday, August 26, 2016

Favorite Things!

It's been a while since I've done a Friday favorites post, so settle in, it's going to be a long one folks! 
|This post is not sponsored in any way, I just really love all the products mentioned|

Avocado Toast
If you're rolling your eyes at the basic-ness of this, don't worry I am too. But you guys, it's so good! I think I have perfected my recipe and when I say I have eaten it at least 5 times a week for the past month, I'm not exaggerating. 
2 slices of bakery style bread ( I use Tuscan from the Target bakery)
1 entire avocado
1 wedge of garlic & herb laughing cow cheese
ground black pepper

I was walking through Target the other day, past all of the school supplies and something called a 'locker chandelier' caught my eye. Not in a good way, though. I think the exact thought process went 'if I ever buy my kid a chandelier for their school locker, someone revoke my parenting license'. So then I did the only reasonable thing I could think of... I bought one. 
In the time it took me to knock off my judgment and actually put this thing in my cart, I thought I would set it up in Abigail's tee-pee and make her a cozy little nook for her room. 
$15 well spent; she has NEVER been so excited! She hugged me tight and said 'thank you so much mommy' and then asked me to shut her door on the way out. Cue crying face. 

FitBit Blaze
I bought myself a little belated birthday gift a couple of weeks ago, to try and get myself moving more during the day. Working from home 98% of the time, I tend to stay cooped up in my house more than I should and forget how nice and good for you it is to get up and moving every hour or so.
The Blaze is great! It tracks steps, heart rate, calories burned, has built in workouts, timers and sends you text and phone call notifications from your phone. I love it and has REALLY motivated me to get moving more! 

Computer Glasses
I've been struggling with everyday headaches for a couple months now and when my mom suggested getting my eyes re-checked, I quickly booked an appointment. It was suggested, given the amount of time I spend in front of the computer that I purchase a pair of glasses designed to be on the computer, your phone or reading for long periods of time. They make my eyes work less when I'm reading close up and also counteract the blue reflective lights that computer and phone screens give off. My eyes are still adjusting to switching back and forth between two different prescriptions, but so far, I'm loving them! 

Body Merry
If you read my post yesterday, you know that I recently purchased some products to help with the fact that I feel like I'm starting to look old AF. The reviews on this brand of products were fantastic and I'm happy to report that I agree. While I haven't been using them long enough to really see a difference in my face, it definitely feels better. So I'll take that as a win!
Super C - 22 Moisturizer || Super 6 Serum

TruSelf Organics Face Mask
I've blogged about this mask before, but had only been using it a short time. I can now really attest to this being the very best face mask I have ever used. I know this for sure, because once I ran out of it, I could actually tell a difference. I reordered it late last week and it was delivered on Monday and I've already used it twice since! If you're in the market for a new face mask, let it be this one! 

There we have it, a big batch of my favorite things!
Hope you all have a great weekend!!

I've linked up with Andrea, Erika and Narci for this week and also Heather at Life in Leggings, enjoy!

Thursday, August 25, 2016

This is 30.

Last night, as I was hopping out of the shower trying to steam away a migraine, I walked out of our bedroom wrapped in a big white bathrobe, with a towel wrapped on my head and a black Biore Pore strip over my nose; glasses resting on top naturally. I strutted into the living to find my husband sitting in a purple bean bag chair, drinking Crown out of a wine glass that said 'Mama needs some wine', playing video games and I couldn't help but laugh and ask 'Is this what 30 looks like?!' 

I turned 30 in May (and am just now realizing I never blogged about it, I'll throw some pictures in at the bottom) and didn't really have any reservations. Age really is just a number to me and I kind of march to the beat of my own drum, so it was just another birthday to me (the BEST one, to be exact!). 

And then the last month hit... and I feel like a switch has flipped. 

I just spent a sizable amount of money on skin care products this week (my favorites coming tomorrow!) because for the first time ever, I can see that my skin is aging and changing. 
Last night as I was sitting on the couch, listening to Billy talk about his day, I caught myself in the mirror, interrupted him mid-sentence and asked him if I 'looked soft' to him. Him being a smart man, looked at me puzzled and said no, but I do! I told him I didn't understand because I haven't really changed the way I eat/drink and he stopped me and said 'you're 30 now. Things are going to change'. I'm sorry, WHAT?! 

Now, I'm not digging my own grave or anything, but I think it's time to do some maintenance! The gym and vegetables are about to become my best friends. 

30 hasn't been so bad though... I have jumped out of a plane ;) 

And just for fun, here are some pictures from my birthday. For reference, we ate dinner here, where we all took turns passing around a beer boot (or 2) until it was empty and then took a 15 person bicycle around town, hopping in an out of bars. If you are local, I can't recommend Limo Cycle Tours enough! 

Monday, August 22, 2016

My Slump & Working from Home - The Good, The Bad & the 'I Haven't Showered in 2 Days'.

Howdy, friends... from the floor of my bedroom, because naturally we are still sleeping on our floor. (If you're not caught up, see previous post here.) 
- above picture, 100% not related to the post, I just like it and it felt weird to write a post without throwing at least one photo in it ;) 

Is it weird that every day that I don't log on to the blog and write about our life, I feel a void or even a dark cloud over my head, because I'm afraid I will regret not having this time to look back on? I feel guilt because it's not that I don't have the time to sit down and write, I just don't have the motivation. 

I've been in somewhat of a serious funk for the past 6 months (maybe longer) or so. So many things have contributed to it; not feeling settled in our home, having a seriously long episode of pretty severe anxiety and also having some mixed feelings about my working from home situation. Lack of motivation is a serious understatement for pretty much everything in my life right now and it's a place of discontentment and something I am really trying to climb my way out of. For now, I'm just going to chat and see where it takes me... by no means do I expect any of you to stick around and read it all, but if you do, you the real MVP.  

If you've been around here for a minute, you know that right at the first of this year I started working full time from home. Same job I've been doing (which is a Compliance Analyst for a company that sells Medicare insurance - work girls, if you're reading this, do you have a better way of describing what we do, because this is all I could come up with!) for the past five years, but due to an office move and spacing issues, my department was relocated to the comforts of our home, full time. I go into the office about one time every two weeks and other than that, it's just me, myself and sometimes Billy if he is off during the week at home, Monday - Friday, 8-5. It's also worth mentioning that just because I work from home, doesn't mean I have the free will to come and go as I please. I'm expected (and am) to be at my desk for my full 8-5 shift, with an hour for lunch and two 15 minute breaks during the day. It is my regular job, just usually done in my PJ's. 
I know this sounds like a dream to most people and you are probably thinking I am bat shit crazy for even mentioning that it is having a negative effect on me at the current time and I don't blame you, because I think it's nuts, too. 
However, over the past 8 months, I haven't really been able to establish a good routine for making it comfortable to be working from home everyday. The first few months were fine... I was busy moving, getting settled into a new place, had different surroundings and I was relishing in the new found 'me' time I had away from toddler town. Lately I've noticed myself becoming way too OK not getting dressed until 5pm when I go pick up Abigail (and even then we're talking yoga pants and a sweater, bra optional), going a day without showering out of sheer laziness (woof) and just overall letting myself slip into a comfortable slump. 
My focus this week is to work my way out of the gloom. As I write this (Sunday night), my alarm is set for 6:30am to head to the gym, which will result in an immediate shower and I may even put real clothes on (I'm talking about a dress, lets be real, I hardly ever wear pants). I'm already planning what Pandora station I'll have pumping through the house as I sit down at my desk for the day and my to do list has been written. 
And to not get anything twisted, I really do love working from home. I know how lucky I am to be able to go to the gym during my lunch break and not have to worry about going back to an office a disgusting mess afterwards, or be able to throw dinner in the crock pot at 10am or switch my laundry over in between conference calls. I wouldn't trade what I do for anything else, but I do miss the structure of going into an office everyday... but then I'd have to wear pants and that's just not something I want to do ;) 

Moving on... again, if you've been reading for a while you know that back in February, our little family packed up the rental home we were living in (partly because the owners put the house up for sale) and moved into an apartment close by. At the time, we knew it would be temporary, but weren't sure what our next move would be (although, we knew it would be pretty permanent, since we are so sick of moving). We have finally figured out what our next step is and we are SO EXCITED (& if you follow me on Snap Chat you've probably already see a spoiler. Snap name - jlhuff13)! It's not the right time to share yet, but when it is, you'll be the first to know ;) That being said, apartment life has been tough. The complex we live in is beautiful and it is so, so nice to be able to just pick up the phone when something breaks and have it fixed at no charge within hours, but we've been blessed with some pretty terrible neighbors (think... me sitting on our porch and having the people above us dump their bucket of mop water off of their slatted wood plank patio directly on to me, not once BUT TWICE)  and we feel very confined to our little space. We knew that was the risk we were taking and it was still the best thing to do for our family at the time, but we are so, so ready to be gone. Not being happy with where you live and being here all the time for work is quite depressing and definitely does not help me with this slump I'm trying to work through. 

I know this is already so long, but can we talk about anxiety for a minute? Because holy shit has mine been out of control lately. I am an anxious person by nature and it is something I've had to deal with (a lot of the time unsuccessfully) for as long as I can remember and without sugarcoating it, it is exhausting and annoying. But lately, the anxiety I have been having is pretty much all centered around Abigail. Hopefully some of you other mama's out here can relate? Or offer some words of encouragement? Or just tell me I'm not crazy?! For some reason, I've been having terrible feelings of something bad happening to Abigail. Or happening to me and Abigail not having me anymore. Nothing traumatic has happened to trigger feelings like this and I know it's just a moment in time, but it seems like it is consuming my thoughts. It can be quite overwhelming to love and care for a tiny person so much that it becomes almost paralyzing. 

This too shall pass... 
on repeat. 

So there we have it. The contents of my brain on a Sunday night at almost midnight. If you're still reading, bless your patient soul. 

Writing is so therapeutic to me and photography holds a special place in my heart, so I'm moving them up on my priority to do list. So check back often (Instagram - jenniferhuff13). Exciting things will be popping up soon (not pregnant)!